i run from you because i run to you

i want you in my life

but don't know what to expect from you

i feel hurt by you, so i push you away

so deeply i want to know you're there

to know that you're okay with who i am

my approval shouldn't come from you

but i desire to do well in your eyes

i value your insight

and cherish your thoughts

am i precious in your sight

does my life a smile to your face

why are you such a jerk

communication shouldn't be this hard

can't you just love me and show me so

can't i just forgive and show you how

time hasn't been our friend

it hasn't healed all wounds

you're further now than i've ever known you to be

and i don't know how to bring you back

i'm not certain that i want to

i'm getting used to life without you

if i could just get past this pain