I feel hurt by him. I feel hurt by his actions and how I feel I've been treated. It frustrates me that while he gets to continue his life and seems relatively unchanged by the circumstances in our relationship I am left to sort things out. I am the one who lives with the hurt and the painful memories. I am the one, seemingly not him.

I am constantly finding myself in a cycle of bitterness, anger and emotion; and it constantly amazes me that my bitterness doesn't effect him. My bitterness effects me...and those in my immediate path, oops.

Here's the thing, I've not been called to bitterness and grudges. I've been called to love and forgiveness ("love and forgiveness honey, love and forgiveness"). I think that forgiveness is harder than bitterness, but its better. Its time to forgive and its time to move on.